Ifs..

If ~ David Gates

If a picture paints a thousand words,

then why can't I paint you?

The words would never show,

the you I've come to know . . .

If a face could launch a thousand ships,

then where am I to go?

There's no one home but you,

you're all that's left me to . . .

And when my love for life is running dry,

You come and pour yourself on me . . .

If a man could be two places at one time,

I'd be with you,

tomorrow and today,

beside you all the way . . .

If the world should stop revolving,

Spinning slowly down to die,

I'd spend the end with you

when the world was through . . .

Then one by one

the stars would all go out . . .

Then you and I

would simply fly away!

so many "if"s going on in my head right now, which some make me feel sore.. while some make me feel so sad :( Many times unintended moves make people regret.. other times, make people feel guilty. Surely you can't turn back time but will the intention not to repeat the same mistake again materialise when the time comes? I don't think we'll be able to predict the future. We can always try our best but will our best be good enuf at other people's eyes? We're only human and human make mistakes. We can try to apply the "forgive and forget" rules but it's easier said than done :-/

right now, i feel sad :( But.. if i'm able to push the sad feelings away, will i be happy? Maybe no.. I'll never know if i feel guilty instead..

So far..

so good? hmmm.... not really but i'm not complaining. There are so many other things to do in life besides complaining :) So, can't be too bad on oneself, innit..

Ziela's maid finally arrived on 8th Jan, after 2 1/2 mths wait. The person looks OK. C, myself & our maid told her million times that she'll need to be honest and take her work seriously. We hope she'll adapt to her new life of 2 attention-needed growing up boys and 2 attention-must-be-granted babies. Now that Ziela still in her maternity leave, they can divide work between them. Later when Ziela starts schooling, she'll have to learn to manage her time well. But, since Mak has agreed to go over to supervise, she'll be able to cope. We keep our fingers crossed :)


When Di came to pick up the maid during the Awal Muharram holiday, the happiest person to be in KL was Fikri. He's been nagging the mom day in, day out abt us not going over to AOR and abt them can't travel to KL due to Ziela's condition. So, when Di took him along, i'm sure he has the "over the moon" feeling, hehehe. At the time they arrived at abt 5am in the morning, he's fully awake. Excited was one reason, he slept thru the journey was another. We quickly awaken Simba from his sleep bcoz Fikri refused to go back to sleep. Groggy pun groggy la.. Simba still layan his cousin. Don't ask me what they talked abt bcoz at that time C & i were busy getting ready to go over to a close fren's house to send her & family off to Bandung via LCCT.

Fikri & Simba spent Thu, cuti Awal Muharram, watching DVD at home and playing games at Simba's fren's house. That nite, we took them out for sushi dinner :) Fikri was so excited since he never tried it before. He checked the menu from one page to another without saying a word. When i asked him what he wants to order, he mentioned that he wants some sushi but doesn't know which one is sushi. So, i told him to forget abt looking at the menu and i picked some plates from the moving conveyer belt. He tried quite a number which some he likes but some he doesn't. From the menu, he looked at the list of branches but was disappointed when he found out that there's none in AOR. Told him to ask his Abah to look for another similar Japanese restaurant in AOR when they get back there :)

We have planned to go to AOR during CNY bcoz that's the only time C's ofis will be closed for a few days. Can't wait to cuddle Icha :)